knotted stomach.

for the first time in a long time, I'm feeling really hollow, really nervous, and really on edge. I'm scared. and I don't even know what of..maybe that's just adding to the angst.

jekyll and hyde.

My heart breaks for those who cannot help themselves.  My mind is baffled by those who hurt others without a second thought.

I'm frightened because I know I am both helpless and cruel.

this would happen.

I walked into my Fiance's apartment for the first time over weekend.  I was so excited to see where he's been living.  I know Mommy would have been very excited for us.  I think it's so appropriate that the first thing to catch my eye in his new home was a picture of her and my dad sitting on his counter.

I love my mom.

1.1.11

a day to remember.